IT IS WHAT IT IS

i dont fit in with these people. I never really fit in with anyone. i can count on one hand the number of people who ever actually completely got me, and that is probably including family members. I only frequently talk to one of those people. But being spread out from my close friends and all the other friends that i had and being surrounded by all these people here at this college just makes me realize more and more that i just dont fit it with people. idk maybe im just being pessimistic (one of my friends has called me a pessimist and i dont disagree exactly) and cynical but thats how i feel right now and the conclusion that im coming to. Ive been alone the majority of my life and i just get along better on my own and of course the select few that care to try to and actually do understand me. sigh idk im just kfjghasldfhla right now…