I saw one of my friends who, since i met her, have though was really pretty and wanted to get to know better. We were cool and pretty good friends i guess but we never really hung out or anything, and she told me about how she has a boyfriend now and i am happy for her i really am, considering her history and hopefully this guy is good to her, but it just sucks to know that another girl who i was attracted to is now taken just like every other girl i get attracted to. Its not really fun for me but thats kind of selfish, at least i think so, so i am happy for her and all the other girls. I just get pissed off when girls im attracted to date douchebags and get treated like shit and im always the good friend whos always there to listen to the drama and essentially picking up the pieces and being encouraging and giving advice and all that. Idk im just getting to the point where i feel like i should be charging for this shit. Jk, i am really fine with being there for people when they need someone to talk to and stuff, idk i just guess i feel like either this shit is almost never gonna end and all ima do is find more girls who only want to be friends with me while i help them get back on their feet after a douchebag hurts them just to watch them fall in the arms of another one, or i can be a fucking man and go out and get the girl for me. At the same time though, thats just a lot of unnecessary stress on me while im trying to get through these years of school and accomplish my main goals that have been set already for my young life. On top of that I am young and i have all the time in the world to worry about all the extra shit. Im just ranting, i shouldnt go on tumblr when i have this much time on my hands. Anyways, as im getting in shape (i have been feeling really great about going to the gym and so far i really want to keep this up, going at 330 today) and getting closer to having a successful college and occupational career, every girl that didnt give me the time of day or turned me down are really gonna be wishing they had a time machine
